All these things that come in my way, I see them as obligations.

Kristine, Ivee, Loraine, Jay Paul, Arwadin and I excused ourselves in our Chemistry class from 1-6pm to go to the Manila Youth Reception Center. This was for the benefit of Tin 19s study. When we reached MYRC and stayed at the reception area while Kristine is talking to Sir Erwin, I was surprised to feel a little fear. Why? At the end of the corner, there was this area with bars. Behind the bars is prolly a teenage boy staring in our direction in a different-from-normal manner. I thought all the boys that are going to participate are going to be like him. When the first batch of 32 teenage boys was brought to a conference-like room with us to participate in conducting the study, Sir Erwin (social worker) said that he 19ll leave the boys to the six of us. We were all like 14 1c---? 1d Maaa!

 

But then, when we started talking to them, answering their questions on the meaning of this and that, the Filipino translation of EACH item, we felt comfortable. Yes, these young teenagers had done something wrong. But what surprised us was that, they shared their experiences. They were able to trust us easily. They didn 19t harm anyone of us. One of them even said in a jokingly manner, 1cPagkatiwalaan niyo kami 18te. Tao rin kame. :D 1d And we were all like, 1cSURE! 1d

 

They had a lot of stories! There was this boy who was already in the center for three years but is not receiving any visits from anyone. This somewhat broke our heart. Because, one of them said that, if there was no visit, they wouldn 19t be allowed to go out of their 18dorm. 19 They 19ll stay in the four corners of the room they 19re staying in. And now that we 19ve came to them, they said that they 19re all really happy! It is very seldom that they 19ll go out of their room and breathe some fresh air. :D

 

One of them also shared to me his experience. There were these items in the questionnaire that goes like, 1cI do my self for my own, 1d and 1cI serve as a good example to my siblings. 1d He reacted as though implying that he was there in the center because he had a case of robbery for the reason that he wanted to provide something for his family..

 

The real thing is really different! I 19ve learned a lot~

CINEMALAYA 2009 WINNERS

Here is the complete list of Cinemalaya 2009 winners:

Best Film: Last Supper No. 3

Special Jury Award: Colorum and Ang Panggagahasa Kay Fe (tie)

NETPAC Award: Baseco Bakal Boys

National Council for Children 19s Television Award: Dinig Sana Kita

Audience Choice (Full Length): Dinig Sana Kita

Best Director: GB Sampedro (Astig)

Best Actress: Ina Feleo (Sanglaan)

Best Actor: Lou Veloso (Colorum)

Best Supporting Actress: Tessie Tomas (Sanglaan)

Best Supporting Actor: Arnold Reyes (Astig)

Best Screenplay: Nerseri

Best Cinematography: 24K

Best Production Design: Mangatyanan

Best Editing: Astig

Best Musical Score: Dinig Sana Kita

Best Sound Recording: Astig

Best Short Film: Bonsai

Special Jury Award: Blogog

Audience Choice (Shorts): Tatang

Best Director (Shorts): Dexter B. Cayanes (Musa)

Best Screenplay (Shorts): Behind Closed Doors

Source: PEP.PH

the night of april 1, nanaginip ako ng something i wouldnt think i would be dreaming about!

here it goes:
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my sister came home with a CAT for dissection on her hands. garfield-color/orange. i wasn't shocked though, cos i have dissected one just this sem. and so, she was asking me how to do it. finally, i grabbed her scalpel and forceps and I DID THE JOB. I DISSECTED THE CAT, POINTING HER THE PARTS THAT I REMEMBERED and so on. ang ganda pa nga at ang linis nung cat niya eh.

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CRAP! WHAT IS THIS?! yeah, i passed, pero bakit minumulto ako ng mga pusang 'to? oh my!
i did not kill them naman eh! waaa!!~

when i talked about my dream sa ibang members ng family, tinawanan nila ko!
masyado daw yata akong na-attach sa pusa ko~ oh my! nooo! geez.

habang nagco-computer ako kanina, may iba akong na-feel. para akong magfe-faint. kinabahan ako, kaya sinabi ko kay mama. my father hurried me to Medical City. buti na lang nandito sa bahay si Uncle kanina at sinamahan niya kami.

*sabi ko dati, gusto kong ma-feel ang mahimatay kasi di ko pa nararanasan. ngayon, ayaw ko na! :(*

then the doctor talked to me after checking me up. asked me several questions kasi my eyes look weary daw.
he said, i suffered from too much stress. tapos, parang emotionally disturbed daw ako dahil sa mga sagot ko sa questions niya.

and so i have to come back on Saturday. they will conduct a therapy daw.

medyo hilo pa ko ngayon pero nag-computer na ko agad. haha.


*eto na nga ba ang sinasabi ko*

pero:
EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT.

finally, nagkaroon na ko ng peace of mind.

i talked with a friend and talked about everything.


ang gaan na ng feeling. :D

masaya na siya sa taas kapiling ang Panginoon.


patuloy siyang magiging inspirasyon mamamalagi sa isipan at puso ng marami.

Friday the 13th.

I'm not soo believing this 'malas' thingy over the date of February 13.
pero, i felt so tired and helpless this day.

it started on P.E class. IM ALMOST LATE WHEN I ARRIVED. i've been in a rush and too much talagang in a hurry.

then it came second and third subject, DevPsy and Mental Health under the same prof. my classmates appealed for a rest day and our Professor agreed naman, so we had our rest  na..
but the worse part was--when one of our classmates tried to open the door to go to the comfort room, THE DOOR WAS LOCKED like it locked itself. dunno~ some of our late classmates outside the room tried to help but its no use. it took a long time pa to call a janitor or a guard. there's a panicky ambiance na nga in our room! whew~ it wasn't rest day at all. :|

fast forward to dismissal. medyo maaga kaming natapos sa Zoology this time than these past few meetings. [pero lagpas pa rin ng original schedule. :||]
i walked hanggang sa pila ng FX. but then, i saw na ang haba-haba-haba ng pila, so i decided to take a jeepney ride na lang. but---WALANG PASIG! malapit na kong umabot ng Quiapo kakaabang! x{

and so i came to a decision to go back sa pila ng FX. nakita ko si Papa! and in that, i was relieved! may kasama ko.. haha~ 5th na siya as pila and told me na ako na lang daw ang pumila sa pwesto niya. :]] [nang-agaw pa ko ng pwesto diba?! :}]

tic. toc. tic. toc. tic. toc.

almost 45mins passed without any FX. sheetness.

then Papa came back to me.

PAPA:    may rally, sarado sa may Bustillos.
ME:         weh?! ano ba yan. dapat kanina ko pa alam. dun na lang sana ko sumakay!
PAPA:    sasakay na nga sana ko kaso inisip kita, baka di ka pa nakakasakay! (waa! :}})
ME:         talaga? [ha ha] tara na!


nakasakay na kami finally and arrived home at 8:50pm. shute talaga. 5:15pm pa labasan ko. :||


the worst pa kasi I HAVE MY CAT WITH ME ALL THE WAY! it's soo heavy that im gonna cry na kung di ko nakita si Papa. buti kahit he's somewhat disgusted [!!--di kasi siya aware kung gano ka-safe yun buhatin dahil ang daming balot. :}}] he carried my catbag pa rin! :))


and that's FEBRUARY 13, 2009 FOR ME.

the two rabbits are looking at the moon.


girl:    how far is the moon here?
boy:   it is very very far that you can't count the distance.
girl:    wow, really?
boy:   yes, really.

SILENCE

boy:    why do you ask?
girl:    nothing... i love you.   
boy:    i know.

girl:    i love you from here to moon.
boy:    i love you more.
girl:    you can't love me more. from here to the moon, it's already countless..


boy:   yes, i can.. because i love you from here to the moon.... and then back. :)

today's a very arduous day.** [my left shoulder hurts.:| ]

it started with  P.E. new dance for our first folk dance for finals.

then sa DevPsy at Mental Health (--na iisa lang ang prof at magkasunod pa na subject), namigay lang ng Midterm grade. i forgot my grade na nga nung Prelim sa mga subject kong yun eh~ haha. so sooo. ayun, kaya i can't compare if there's any progress ba. [alright, ill stop the discussing about grades. ayoko. wee- :D]

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the main point of my blog here is my CAT! it's here! yes, it's here na! i let my classmate (charles) to bring it pa nga on my table since he can easily handle it. grabee~ i just can't hold it talaga! tapos maya-maya, he made fun of me pa. hawak niya pa pala yung cat ko hanbang daldal ako ng daldal kaya pagtalikod ko sa kanya to ask him something--GOD!!(sorry)-- the CAT WAS ALL OUT IN FRONT OF ME! and i can't stop screaming! tapos im telling him to stop na, but he's making it again.

shite. grabe talaga. like it's the moment i got my frog. pero different pa rin talaga. kasi this time, IT'S BIGGER. HEAVIER. my left arm [na ginamit kong sabitan ng catbag ko] still hurts up to now!

i waited for the fx pa talaga [FOR 45MINS. LANG NAMAN.] para lang may maayos akong kalagayan.

alright, i cant take this anymore. i need to survive~ kaya i have no choice but to do it. ive got to do it. :| xD

nakakalungkot.

sinasadya ko ba? hindi naman, namalayan ko lang na umuulit na pala. wag kayong mag-alala. di na mauulit. titigilan ko na. ay mali. hindi pala. tinigil ko na, nabalitaan mo ba? medyo matagal na. bago yata mag-start ang New Year.

nalulungkot talaga ako. siguro unusual 'tong nararamdaman ko ngayon para sa iba kasi di ako madalas na ganito. pero nalulungkot talaga kasi ako.

giour is distressed.

If it's not one thing, it's another. Your life is a pitiful wreck, and it's all you ever write about. Why don't you at least make up a happy story for once. Your friends would appreciate that.

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this is horrible true. heehee. :D
*grabbed from xxasukixx

LAST WEEK:

our p.e instructor gave us the date of our finals. it was dated: OCTOBER 14, 2008.TUESDAY.

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OCTOBER 7:

we attended our p.e. class to do the usual, practice for finals. then, she came and tell us all of a sudden that our finals will then be adjusted to thursday, october 9. and words like *fcuk! wth is she saying?!*, dragged my thoughts.

because of that announcement, we were forced to practice in a freaky rush manner. we haven't had a copy of our music yet. so our only day to practice is wednesday, october 8.

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OCTOBER 8:

we went straight outside the school immediately after our last class,zoology. we were suppose to practice in our classmate, shem's place. and rapidly as it happened, unexpected heavy downpour fell while we were walking along recto. %^&*!

so, we finally decided to make it at mau's place. we had a lot of fun while doing the aero steps~ really! not because of the steps itself but the way we did it. there were side by side attacks! hee~

and by the way.

TO MAU: the food's great! haha. :D *and your parents really took the BROTHER&SISTERS thing!* xD


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EARLIER AT SCHOOL:

we have no MUSIC! and taht's a BIG WHOA~ well, i was really depressed and truly discouraged. i was thinking already of getiing thhis grade because of this and that. and i would explain this and that and whatsoever. fo real!

three of my groupmates *jessica, arlene and joey* rushed to the shop and sacrificed our math quiz. :| *hugs!*
at 10:30am, after our math class, we rushed tot he p.e gym to practice since we were still not oraganized by our own steps. we didn't have our break.


PERFORMANCE:

we were second to perform. it was not totally clean. of course there were flaws, but then, we heard our instructor saying EXCELLENT.. :D
oh, well, isn't that amazing?! haha! it paid off! all our efforts~ yatta! xP


`now felt a little satisfied and relieved. :D